A new hobby.

Thanks to this:


I've been doing this:

My dad told me so.

Earlier in the day on the 4th, I called my dad to wish him a Happy Birthday. I enjoyed a fun chat, usually we celebrate back home in Indiana, but not this year.

I decide to throw my own party instead of the traditional trip home. I bought candles, fireworks, glow bracelets, bottled beverages, stuff for s'mores, and the list goes on.

Activities for the party included sidewalk chalk, croquet, a new playset, and a bonfire. I know it's hot, but really, I had a pile of crap I was tired of looking at, from the snow storms this year. Josh and I have seriously had no fewer than 5 bonfires. We do it regularly. NEVER, have we had a problem. EVER.

UNTIL we had twenty witnesses.

Back up to the phone conversation, I told my dad all about the party, including the bonfire. He says to me and I quote: "You need to have not one, BUT THREE, buckets of water, you know, just in case." "ok, dad". We only did ONE.

Imagine now, dry grass, huge fire... now to grown adults using buckets, coolers, lids, etc. to get this fire put out. Seriously, TOTAL mayhem. Thanks to some people with quick thinking we were able to put it out without any major damage.

But the lesson learned?

Dad ALWAYS knows best.

and P.S. Heath parties are always rockin'. Sorry you missed it.

Number Three Turns Three - Happy Birthday Laila!

Today's the day! She arrived in a hurry, I went to the hospital at 6pm she came at 9:30pm... My only entirely drug free birth, I guess I had a tylenol for a headache...

Her name came from Laila Ali - who was on Dancing with the Stars the season before she was born. I thought for sure she was a boy, my biggest surprise!

And Laila has definitely thrown us for a loop! She's the kid we have tried hard to figure out. We still have no idea what's going on with that girl. But she's so fun, and lovable, and beautiful. She has a way with showing love to EVERYONE. Sometimes I wish I could help her more, and wonder if I'm doing enough... but somehow we muddle through.

Laila, today is your day!

Happy Birthday!

An awakening.

Joy in my Journey today:

The Gospel of Jesus Christ
My Main Squeeze
My Posterity
A Body that can Move

WHERE IS MY DARN CAMERA CHARGER??

Pictures to come one day...

Our 3rd Home.

Finally, one we don't have to mortgage.

Good Things to Come

Good Things to Come

Running Now because I Couldn't Then.

As a few of you know, I am a Survivor.

And One in Six women are.

I once had a counselor that said Victims of Abuse often choose running as a way to heal. They choose it because it was something they wish they could have done, but couldn't. There are many reasons why I picked up the habit, but I'm sure this is one of them.

Anyway, I did some research and found a perfect organization, RAINN.

My Goal: $2620 - $100 dollars per mile.

Please Help by Going Here.

Also, I would like to dedicate each mile of my marathon, to a survivor. If you, or someone you know, were a victim, I'd love to run for you. Send me an email, let me know. The only person that will know is me. I want to think about that person during their mile.

* Update * 2 Miles Reserved *

Thanks a million times over for your help with this, please spread the word, any amount will help.

With Love,

Lucy

Hotel Booked

It's even more official... I booked the hotel for my Marine Corps Marathon.

I also did my two minute time trial in the rain at 6:00 a.m.

There was some debate, my time was 16:16 or 16:17 FOR TWO MILES.

Freaking Awesome.

Marathon Training Day 1

Three cheers for my "Running Coach". He's a volunteer, you could say... Not getting paid, I think I might be his 'experiment'. He really believes in me. Something that might just come in handy on mile 24. Just a hunch. But he's set a plan for me... a really thorough plan. So I plugged away at my 3 mile tempo run today, and I felt entirely out of shape?!? But it still felt great!

I'm sorry if you're not a fan of running. I think my blog has shifted to this focus, because hey, it's my focus these days! I will try to post pictures of my kiddos as soon as possible. It seems that's all anybody really wants to see!

Hopefully, I will pop in a little more frequently, but you never know, summer is just around the corner...

Half-Way There.

So I didn't win. I did finish. I felt awesome (other than absolutely needing a bathroom...). Had to take two detours, easily lost 15 minutes off my time. But I RAN all 13.1 miles.

I even overslept and ALMOST skipped the race, but I got up, flew out the door, and made it with ten minutes to spare. I'm so up for the Marathon. The crazy thing is, I'm thinking about some wild time goals... I have to figure out what exactly I'm up for...

Anyway, another medal added to my growing collection! (finisher medal of course)

One of those weird days.

Early Early this morning I got a text from Josh telling me he was headed to bed, but made it out of Afghanistan, into Kuwait. He's beginning his trek home, and I see a break in my future... Good news, right?

My sweet visiting teacher invited me for lunch today. I showed up along with several ladies and realized she was hosting a luncheon... Good news, right?

Came home the weather looked great, decided my VERY LONG grass needed mowed. Used whatever gas I had left, oops in went the oil/gas mix... Not good news, right?

Lawnmower started up, seemed to be fine, hit a root of a tree, and the blade went all wonkie on me... Not good news, right?

Finally planted the tomato plants I've had for a week... Good news, right?

Hallie and Laila were watching a cake decorating show, when Hallie told me it smelled like smoke, o.k., ignored her. Hallie came to get me again, it really smells like smoke, mom. Ok, fine go check, and it stinks like burning plastic, with a ton of smoke... Not good news, right?

Apparently she had turned on the heater and it was too close to the couch, you can figure out what happened there...

Some days are not great, other days awesome, and then there are those days, where you are all over the place... Today was an all over the place kind of day.

Lucky 13.

I'm hoping that my 3rd root canal, on the same tooth, will be my last. Fun day for me.

Dinner and An outdoor adventure...

A SUPER EASY recipe for a yummy dinner to go: Asparagus Gruyere Tart

And after an entire afternoon of shoveling mulch, I'm off with the kids to a 'new' park to play.

Have a great Monday!

This thing we call life.

Finding Joy Today:

1. My super amazing gym. I enjoyed my first run since the race, I took it easy, my calf muscles are still pissed, but it felt great to get moving. 3 miles is easy.

2. Adventure Central. A day for Hallie to play, use the computer, learn to cook, play outside, just enjoy a day of her spring break!

3. Photography. I taught a class last minute for the young women, and I think it went well! I looked up some old photographs, isn't it great to document our lives through pictures?

4. Sisters. I can count on my sisters anytime. (except for when they are together shopping at Aldi's, WITHOUT ME...)

5. Beautiful Days. I can't seem to get outside enough, these days. Even in the heat, I love being outside. I'm anxiously awaiting Josh to come home so that I can enjoy several runs outside... in preparation for my newest adventure.

6. Marine Corps Marathon. I absolutely love setting goals and achieving them. I dated this guy who told me I could never run the Indianapolis Half Marathon. I hated his arrogance. I ran a half about five years ago, just fine, so there! And now, for me, a goal I've wanted to accomplish for years is on the Horizon. I'm looking forward to having this focus.

And for kicks, I am not thankful for stinky gym guy sitting next to me while I blog.

Enjoy your day!

77 Degrees

I'm outta here.

Top Ten Joys On a Random Wednesday

1. This Book. It includes dirty little secrets from anonymous moms. Like "I do my son's homework just so we can get it out of the way faster. I just grab the pencil and he looks at me like I'm crazy."

2. Beautiful Weather. It was so pretty outside when I was playing with the kids. Never mind the scent radiating from Laila as she ran around...

3. Service from the Relief Society.

4. All day kindergarten. (there's my dirty little secret)

5. Messy kid faces. I'm horrible at keeping my kids faces clean. It can be kind of gross. But today, looking at Miss Laila roaring at me outside with her VERY messy face. I loved it so much I kissed it.

6. Sign Language. Without it, Life with Laila would be even tougher. She signed mama while saying it a few days ago... while looking at my blog with me. That was a long time to wait for her to say mama.

7. This Recipe. I haven't been feeling good today, but this dinner was so yummy.



8. Time alone. I like to pray alone, think alone, be alone. And yet I hate being lonely.

9. Sisters. I have the best sistahs ever. Today we were both miserable, or should I say irritable, everything was irritating. Then all of a sudden I said what the hell, Becca, the only reason I talk to you is to laugh, I haven't laughed the entire time. I told her i was irritated with her irritability. We just laughed, and totally changed our attitudes.



10. Love Letters. One of my best night outs involved a steamed milk, a cozy chair, and this great book. Looking forward to another night out. One day.

From the Archives

Paying it Forward (September 14, 2007)

The Wal-Mart. The Grocery. The kids. Yikes, never a positive experience. I dread going to the grocery for many reasons, in particular it's always a lot of money, the kids aren't always on their best behavior, it's mundane. I don't know. Just in general not fun. So today I embarked on the dreaded experience and with a list and coupons in tow, I set forth to just get it done. I went through the process and collected my items one by one, it took awhile but I did it. I went to check out, and the lines were long and to be honest I am on WIC - and it's quite embarassing and I hate taking up people's time, I went to write a check(a familiar commercial come to mind?) so I was just taking awhile and there was this nice gentlemen (maybe late 30's) behind me, patiently waiting, and I kept thinking he must be so annoyed with me. When he said "go ahead and put my things on the bill". I was confused, I said "Pardon me?". He said, "I'd like to take care of this for you today." In my mind I wasn't comprehending what he was saying. He said "I'd like to take care of this for you today, I do one good deed everyday, and today you get to be the lucky person." I MEAN WHAT?? I told him "Sir, I can't let you do this it's going to be $100 bucks!" He said "It's o.k. I've been blessed in my life financially I'd like to do this for you." In my mind I thought I can't even accept this, but in my heart something was saying let this man do this for you. So I said "I don't even know what to say, as tears welled up in my eyes, I said thank you so much, you don't even know, my husband is deployed, this is so generous". It was just a special moment for the two of us standing there in the Wal-Mart. Afterward my friend came up to me, and I said "this gentlemen just paid for my groceries". I went to put my groceries in my cart as tears were rolling down my face. My friend went back and asked him about his good deeds, and he explained his son died in February and in his honor he does a good deed for someone every day. What a legacy! It was such a touching moment, a moment I won't ever forget. Generousity for a complete stranger, and through his grief, I believe many people are being touched by this. So today, I ask "Pay it Forward", do a good deed for someone, someone you DON'T KNOW. I wish I had gotten his name or shook his hand, or something I was a mess, I couldn't even think. What I am going to do is send a letter to the editor of our local paper, I just couldn't believe it. I had to share this amazing story with you. No longer will grocery shopping be a mundane chore, I can think of September 14, 2007 and the sweet man who made a sacrifice for me. I, too, will pay it forward. Hope you have a surprising day, too! :)


Those of you that have been following the blog might remember this story.

Finally, after 2 1/2 years I had the opportunity this evening to return the favor.

It felt awesome.

Laila

Well Laila is the 4th and final entry in my recent kid updates. She tends to get a lot of blog time because of all that goes on with her. She recently had a speech and language evaluation and she tested very well cognitively, and on receptive language. Her oral expressive language is almost 2 years behind where she should be. Which is a little painful to hear as a mom. However, the sign language has proved to be quite critical in her communication. I have a hard time with her constant whimperings for things, but we love her still the same. She should begin speech therapy at Colson and Hallie's school, I'm not sure when that will begin, but hopefully it will be good for her, I suppose it couldn't hurt.

She is such a friendly girl and insists on waving to people until they wave back. Meaning we eventually get waved at or smiled at from even the grumpiest looking people. She makes everyone feel loved and is very playful. She causes us the most worry, but has such a fun personality that we just love. My sweet Laila, I can't believe how quickly time is flying by.

While the boys are away the girls will play.

I took Hallie to get her ears pierced... and she was so brave. She had to be talked into the 2nd earring, but she definitely didn't want to look silly, so she managed.

I wish you could see the picture better, she was so excited!

I would like to say she's more vigilant about cleaning her ears than her teeth. Why is that?

And since I'm on a roll...

I have told you the drama with the top and the bottom kid, why not move on to the middle two...

Today will be Hallie. Hallie is a believer. She still believes I have eyes in the back of my head. Seriously.

She also believes that Leprechauns invaded her Kindergarten classroom yesterday. Evidence being part of the ceiling missing, an upside down table, and the treasure box missing.

She is also a fashion goddess. Yesterday in TJMaxx the girl says: "Mom, I have got to have this." In her teenage voice while all the ladies around me look at her... She is going to be one seriously intense teenager.

Hallie is tough. She is not an overly bubbly personality. She's a little pessimistic, and a little snotty. I wish I knew where she got that. It's so painful to see your worst qualities blatant and in abundance in your children. Sigh.

However, you catch her in the right mood, and she can be incredibly thoughtful, helpful, and concerned. She prays for Colson every day that he will be comfortable. I love that.

Other than this the main problems she has is leaving her make up out, which is regularly found by Laila.

A mother always knows.

I didn't know what was wrong, but I knew it was something. That Dr. yesterday made me so mad. It took all that I had not to wring her little neck. She wasn't listening. I tried to tell her, this wasn't my daughter, something was wrong. I told her I had 4 children, and never had I seen this. She let me go, with a coupon for over the counter probiotics (for the runs), and wished me luck, that she's sorry she couldn't do anything for her. I wasn't able to hide my irritation. She called later with a prescription for diaper rash ointment.

I had hoped for a better night, armed and ready for an early bedtime. After 45 minutes of sleep, Charlie was up, for the night. She fell asleep for about an hour from 3 - 4 a.m. But by 5 a.m. I called the neighbor and said I had to take her to the E.R. So in about 55 hours I had only had about 5 hours of sleep.

Arriving to the E.R. Charlie was completely normal. She wasn't screaming just looking around. I explained to the doctor what had been going on. Some young guy, who took the time to LISTEN. After awhile, Charlie came through for me with one of her episodes of screaming and thrashing. He said it was definitely not normal behavior for a 13 month old. And was on a mission to find out what was wrong.

She had an x-ray that indicated a possible appendix issue, and so they ordered an ultrasound. Here is where I knew something was up. They spent a lot of time on the ultrasound, and called in a series of doctors... 3 of them. I said they were making me nervous, and gave me a little chuckle, and didn't say anything. Making me more nervous! After awhile they diagnosed her with a blocked up bottom(a pretty bad one). Ironically NOT the runs like the Dr. yesterday, had thought. Thankfully, with some work, we can treat the problem in time. Avoiding a larger disaster... Can I just say a mother always knows. No, I'm not an all knowing doctor. I'm better than that, I'm an all knowing mother. Sigh.

What a day. I got some sleep this afternoon, and am typing this from my front porch, enjoying the most gorgeous afternoon. Looking forward to one awesome run this Saturday. I only have 2 weeks until my 10 miler, and seven weeks for my half-marathon. Do you think I could avoid any more emergencies? Let's keep our fingers crossed...

Charlie

I'm heading to bed, but wanted to post about my sweet little Charlie. She has had a rough couple days so not feeling well, and last night was up until 2:30 a.m. screaming, crying, couldn't console her. It was awful! Didn't know what to do. But morning comes, as it always does for us moms, and I did manage to get Hallie off to school on time. However, she still didn't seem to be doing any better so I finally took her in to the Doctor, with a fever of 103, she was so sick. The Dr. did nothing, prescribed nothing. I wanted to scream, HELP ME!! How do I take care of these babies on 3.5 hours of sleep?? So irritating!

Anyway, I'm hoping Charlie and I can sleep, we both need it desparately! Even sick, she is so precious to me... my baby, baby. Wish us luck.

Sometimes the right thing is the hard thing.

As a mother we regularly make decisions. What's for dinner, when is it time for new shoes, FHE or early bedtime? It's exhausting being the decision maker.

Sometimes the decisions are easy. But, other times, decisions are tough, even when you know they are the right ones.

This weekend I sent my baby boy off to Nana's house. She just happens to be a 3rd grade teacher back in Indiana. (Cherri if you're reading this don't tell dad! Colson wants to surprise him this weekend) Colson is my only boy, he's the oldest, and the only one to suffer through all of the long deployments. This one has been the toughest on the family, as so many of you have figured out by my craziness. However, when Josh presented me with the idea of Colson finishing the school year in Nana's class, I thought he had gone crazy, too.

With a lot of thought, and discussion, we left the decision up to Colson. He chose Nana. Although it was excruciating to let my son go, I know it really will be a great opportunity for all of us. He sure could use the extra attention, and especially a break from a mom that hasn't been herself.

So today is Colson's first day of school with Nana as his teacher. I can't stop thinking about him!

Colson hope it goes well! We love you and miss you, (even Hallie, who's moping around everywhere, but won't admit it's because her brubba isn't home).

Remember, the frogs you catch out in the yard do NOT go in the teacher's desk!!

My Blog: Renovated.

Thanks to my awesome sister, and her graphic design talents, I have a great new header!

Sometimes you just need a change. I needed a change!

We tried to get owl(bec and I's inside joke) poop to drip down the sign, I thought that would be more accurate to the 'joys' in my journey, but nevertheless, an optimistic outlook never hurt anyone!

Over the next few days I'm hoping to change things up a bit, freshen up, and make your visit more pleasant!

Cheers!

Before there was THIS TALK my blog was about 'finding' the joy. Some days I have to look hard, other days not at all. But thought I would share a better version of the idea with you.

Easter Pictures

Say what? It's not Easter yet, Lucy, you crazy woman! Colson won't be with us for Easter, and I had ordered the cutest little dresses and tie, so I wanted to take a picture! But you know me, and photos of the kids... usually total mayhem.

The kids didn't disappoint. Still mayhem. However, cute mayhem.






And then we lost Laila:

From Wolf to Bear

Somehow Colson was able to finish all of his wolf requirements along with 5 arrows in time for his birthday... I still feel like I'm speaking a foreign language with all this scouts stuff. But he loves it! We have such a great program in this area, and one of the reasons we bought a house in this ward! We really liked some locations in the other ward, but after seeing the youth in this ward, we knew this was where we wanted our kids to be!

Great Job Colson!

P.S. I'm getting so OLD!! Colson was measured at the doctor this week. 4' 7". He's about as big as his Aunt Suzanne. And less than a foot from being taller than his mother. Seriously, I'm freaking out...

Guess who finally found the cord for the camera?

You'll never guess where I found it... in the camera box. So weird.

I will start the update with Colson and Hallie's birthday party at the local gym/playground. I paid for convenience in a BIG way. SO nice, plus the kids had a great time. Every single parent left. I seriously thought someone would stay!! Nope. I had 15 kids total... that's a lot to keep track of! Anyway, they had fun, cake, and pizza. We brought the presents home for them to open here, and Josh was bummed all morning. I think he's a little tired of missing everything. And to be honest, I'm a little tired of doing it all!

I'm thinking Spring.

Finally, a warm day, the kids and I went for a hike, we felt great, and enjoyed the warmth... Hope it's getting to be spring where you are!

Why I love running: Trail Run Edition

Remember why I love running?

Well here's why running a trail makes me feel good.

1. It's never the same run twice. Ever. Nature has its way of changing things up on you... weather, ground, temperature, seasons, always different. I've been running on a treadmill, where everything is ALWAYS the same, it was a great run.

2. Electronics are optional. I can listen to music if I want, but don't have to. I don't even need electricity to run... Today was an electronic free run.

3. Running a trail is a different kind of challenge: crossing streams, (seriously with a cord strung above to hang on to as I climbed across the rocks), climbing fallen trees (thanks to the recent snow there were quite a few of these), dodging rocks and roots, hills, valleys, meadows, all on the run today. It was a hard run, it had been a week, but felt awesome. I have the worst ankles, so I'm always nervous I will bite the dust, its a matter of when not if... but today it was a clean smooth run.

4. Alone with my thoughts, I didn't see a single person on my run today. At the gym, I'm surrounded by people. But today, I was alone. I thought about so many things, cleared my head, and found joy in being alone today.

5. Scars from trail running are cool. I have a great one on my knee for my tumble down Pike's Peak. Today, I scored a few lacerations across my leg, thanks to some wayward thorny vines. Through my pants!! Nicely done. Blood is much more common on the trails.

6. Trail running requires different shoes. I love shoes. ;)

So there you have it. If you listened to me last time and picked up your dusty running shoes, now is your chance to change it up, hit a trail... don't hike it. Run it.

Happy Trails!

Pucker Up.

Dear Mr. Drew.

I know you mean well. I know you are trying to help. But I'm sore only hours after meeting with you. With a huge smile on your face you say things like, "and if that's too easy, let's try this...".

Tomorrow is my kids birthday party. I'm going to have 15 kids running around me, and I'm not going to be able to move. Thanks so much. I owe you one.

I suppose it's for the best.

Thanks,

Your sore, pansy client.

What brings me Joy today.

1. Bath Bombs.

2. Colson's incessant passion for legos, knights, and life. What a kid! He so deserves a better mom.

3. Hallie's Homework, a worksheet for the 100th day of school that required her to fill in the blank:

I wish I had 100 _______________ (magic wands).
I never would want 100 _________________ (brothers).

4. Laila signing friend.

5. Charlotte signing come here.

6. Running, I miss it already.

7. Scriptures.

8. Instant Messaging on my phone, it makes talking to Josh so much easier.

Josh Does Love Me.

I had totally forgotten about Lush. We fell in love with their homemade, naturally, super fizzy bath bombs, and other fun stuff, a couple years ago. They are kind of pricey.

But for the V-day. You know where you celebrate L.O.V.E.? He sent me such a fun kit from a place I Love, but had forgotten about. Thanks Bunches. (I won't mention that it arrived over a week after the holiday)

I can't help but share, It would make "Lucy's Favorite Things" list every year.

I made a new friend.

I L.O.V.E. making new friends.

I think because I lack a mothering mother, Heavenly Father has blessed me with some amazing friends. Friends that I've prayed, cried, laughed, cursed with, you know who you are, pray tell, have I been a good friend to you?!?

For some reason, probably lots of them, I haven't been entirely myself here in C-ville. So I took some good counsel and have started reaching out. Sigh. Tough when I'm a single mom to four kids. I mean who would want to have me over???

So for two weeks running, I've had some families over for dinner. What fun! Both evenings were a great success. But one, in particular, seemed almost an answer to a prayer. I think she needed me and I needed her. Today, I saw that she had made it to the gym, and on the sign in sheet, made a HUGE deal about her making it. It's dang hard as a mom to make it! When I left, there was a cute little note that said "You Rock" next to where I signed in my kids. I've been having a hard time, feeling a little alone, and so that little note, made my day.

Maybe this advice would help you: Reach out.

You could bless others, and they could bless you.

Sunday Mornings.

An extra pair of hands would be so nice.

4 kids dressed.

4 kids fed (twice)

1 mom dressed and fed.

2 girls hair done.

10 shoes to find and put on.

Scriptures, talks, lessons, diapers, snacks collected.

1 husband to chat with on the phone.

Yeah, well good thing church starts after Noon.

Adios, I got more to do.

TWO Hot Dates in one weekend.

Last night our church had a live band perform, it was SO FUN!! The kids had a great time playing and dancing. Colson would NOT dance with me, he was still a cute date. It felt good to be moving, not to mention have something to do on a Friday night. And Charlie was the best dancing partner.

The 2nd Hot Date -

My Treadmill. Me and that guy have become VERY close. Today its 7 miles. Wish me luck. He better be good to me. I'm going to finally take the time to make a running playlist, that should help.

ALSO, I have committed to run the Marine Corps Marathon. (Thanks, Jared) Really.

I have a 10-miler on April 3rd, and a Half (a hilly one, eeks!) on May 1st. Wowsers. What have I gotten myself into??

Anyway, I better get going. Big Plans for the Saturday.

Come Home.

I found myself a new favorite song. Come Home by OneRepublic.

Josh and I have been going through a rough time. Mostly induced by my selfishness, and it has been a hard few months. I am grateful for this struggle and what I've experienced and learned along the way. I regret the hurt and turmoil I've put my family through, but I wouldn't change anything.

I needed to learn these lessons. I needed to learn that I need to put my family above what I want. I needed to learn that marriage is about commitment, and I made some serious covenants. I needed to learn that life without Josh isn't all that pleasant.

I needed to learn some new ways to love.

Perhaps, I'm sharing too much. Josh, forgive me! But if you know me, I hate the idea of putting on a happy face and pretending life is good. I'm a real person with real problems. I'm so not perfect. I've made some mistakes, but don't you think this life is about what we're made of? What kind of person am I? Well, I'm working on being a better one.

The song I mentioned earlier is for Josh. I've missed you, Come Home.

Happy Happy Birthday Lindsay Dear...

Seriously, one of the greatest women I know. She is classy, sweet, pleasant, patient, tenderhearted, spiritual, forgiving, thoughtful, organized, and downright the best friend a girl could ask for.

Lindsay and I have known each other for years, and we became friends when we were made visiting teaching companions six years ago. We've been there for each other on some of our most dark and difficult days, but also some of the most joyous.

I SO WISH I was with you to celebrate today with you! Steve better take care of you!

Have a Happy Birthday!

Love you like a sister!

Lucy

6 years in the making.

For six years, on the same weekend, there's a group of women that get together and all have one thing in common: a duty station.

We spent the weekend chatting, eating, dancing, (I even managed to get a trail run in), watching football (Go COLTS), crafting, playing games, beautifying, and just catching up on our lives from the past year.

Did I mention we got hit on at the 'local' (and I mean local) bar??? But who couldn't resist a gorgeous group of 10 women?

The women came from Washington, Utah, Georgia, Maryland, Pennsylvania, Massachusetts, Virginia, even HUNGARY... it is a weekend that can't be missed.

This is the first year that we took the time to start the documentation of previous years, where we have been, who was there, and the stuff that happened each year. One day someone will take these notes and turn it into a fictional novel that will make us rich and famous. One day.

I couldn't stop smiling. What a weekend. Grateful for good friends, and definitely missed some of you regulars! Until Next Year!

Kitchen Dreaming

My kitchen is awful. I mean awful.

I hate the counters, cabinets, oven, floors, everything!

I miss my old (but small) kitchen, nice new fresh... So, to keep myself busy, I've taken it upon myself to start researching my kitchen dreams.

If you could do something different in your kitchen what would it be? I want those fun ideas... Please share!

School in Session???

I'm getting awfully excited... I think just maybe the kids will be in school for the first time in 3 weeks. I just might actually get something done... I just might enjoy a peaceful quiet afternoon... please, please, please...

Why running makes me feel good.

I have spent the last few months working on my physical body. I've lost a total of 29 pounds, no I'm not skinny... but I've gone from my heaviest NOT pregnant weight, to pre-baby weight. I've been doing that special weight loss diet that is sold in so many different ways... Do you want the secret? I will tell you FOR FREE. Eat Right and Exercise. I know most of my weight loss has come from the choice to eat less junk, and control my portions. However, I will admit to regularly attending the gym, which I know has helped. But part of this whole process, I have really learned to love running. I wanted to take a minute to document why.

1. Over time, my muscles have definition. I look stronger, and I feel stronger.

2. When I begin the run my breathing is heavy and hard, and my body is clunky (is that a word?), as the run continues I find a rhythm. My body moves freely, and my breathing becomes slow and steady. I love this place.

3. Sometimes I'm tempted to eat a cupcake. But I remember that it takes me a good and hard 30 minutes to burn 330 calories. It's worth it sometimes. But not always.

4. It gives me the opportunity to set goals and achieve them. Running farther than I have ever run, Running faster, I can come up with all kinds of ways to challenge myself, and give myself some opportunities for success. Go Charlottesville 10 Miler!!

5. Running is an escape. I can put in my ear phones, play my favorite music, and pretend I'm somewhere else. Literally leaving behind whatever I want to.

6. Running is for all ages, I love that I consistently run next to old people. I pray I'm old and still running. Sometimes I see young kids running around the track. There is very little skill in putting one foot in front of the other, we can all do it!

7. Afterwards, my skin looks amazing.

8. The physical exertion of working hard and sweating profusely feels amazing. It makes me want to do it again and again and again.

I had a great run today. I wanted to remember why.

You know, if you haven't done it for awhile, pick up your dusty running shoes, and hit the road. You might find yourself a new friend, or a long lost one.

Happy Birthday to Charlie!

You might remember this post. I can't believe it has been a year since we've been here. What a crazy journey we've been on. I just didn't want this day to go by without a post on my sweet charlie girl.

She is a scooter!! I know it. Here we go again, darn it! At least she makes more noise than Laila did, so I don't think we have the same problems ahead of us.

She reaches out her hands to say "come get me", it's so cute!!

She has 7 teeth.

She LOVED the cupcake today.

She is regularly injured by her 2 year old sister. Poor thing!

She laughs a lot, and for the most part is a happy baby.

She is the worst sleeper, because I won't let her cry! She's my baby... and I'm clinging to that. It's still a little sad for me.

Her birthday was a little lame. Just us. We did cupcakes, and the kids sang. I took video on my ipod, downloaded it to the computer and can't find it. Figures.

Happy Birthday, my baby girl!

Josh is leaving and so is my blog for now...

Does life ever get to you? Well it has me. Some things have got to go. The blog for now is one of them. I used to LOVE writing, and scrapbooking, I am just not feeling it anymore. I've shifted focus to my kids and running. Adios, for now.

Miss Me?

Blogging has not found its way to the top of my priority list these days.

I have time for a quick update this morning before I take my "teenage" daughter to the mall for some one on one time.

About a week ago Josh came home! He is here for a 2 week 'vacation' to get my head above water, and then leave again. We kept it a secret because his parents were coming in town to watch the kids for a special weekend getaway for me. They were so surprsed to pull up and see Josh and the kids. I just know they had a great time without the pesky daughter in law lingering!

I, too, had a weekend filled with adventure. It was a much needed respite. Thanks to some great friends I was able to come back with new focus and perspective.

Life is not easy, but we are meant to have Joy. Just reminding you to Find Joy in your journey today!

Happy Hopeful New Year to you!

Breathe a Sigh of Relief

The results came in this morning, Laila's MRI came back normal.

Thanks a million times over for the prayers, fasting, and positive thoughts sent our way. We continue to hope that we can figure out the best way to help her.

On a side note, I got to ride in my first ambulance ride with Charlie yesterday. She fell off the couch at the dentist office onto a cast iron coffee table, and had a massive bump, and was bleeding out of her eye. The dentist said do you want me to call 911, and of course I was a total mess, and said "Do I need an ambulance?" We called the pediatrician, they said to get to the hospital, and so we did. Everything checked out, she's ok, looks a little battered, but is OK.

So... please don't ask what else could happen to me. I don't want to know.

I'm off to do my daily dose of exercise. Thanks again! Our family owes you.

Please Hold on the Phone Calls.

I've received so many phone calls and well wishes, and thoughts that I just can't keep up with everybody! Don't take it personal that I haven't returned a call. Remember I'm still managing a home with 4 kids! Life is busy.

Sometime this week we will have the results of the MRI. I promise to post the news as quickly as I can. Hopefully its good news.

But, I'm a bit overwhelmed, and need some time to just breathe.

I will keep you updated when I can. We originally thought we would get results today, but that has been delayed to the middle of the week. Again, I will let you know when I can.

Thanks again for the fasting, I appreciated it, and felt the strength.

Love you all!
Lucy

White Christmas, on its way!

If we are to get a big bad snowfall, it's only appropriate to have it the week before Christmas... I'm so excited. I'm heading out to pick up some snow pants for Hallie, Gloves for Laila and Hallie, a sled, and why not, a new pair of boots for me!!

We appreciate so much the well wishes with Laila, and for those who are supporting us this weekend, I already feel the boost.

Laila

Before the septic problems, like 2 days before, I knew I needed to make a decision about Laila. She has had so many random symptoms, and although the neurologist said we could do an MRI, I decided to wait it out, as Josh would be leaving. Needless to say, with the vomiting symptom, and a few other things, I realized I needed to proceed in the direction of a Brain MRI.

I wanted to wait to tell Josh, so that he wouldn't worry from 7,000 miles away, but the burden of everything came crashing down when I received the paperwork for the MRI in the mail yesterday. It's no small thing, and I need the support. I've been trying to do so much alone, that this is something I just couldn't do alone. I talked to Josh this morning, and of course he was as calm as can be, yet, trying to figure out if he should try and come home for the test. Our little Laila just can't exist without her buddy. We're not sure what's going to happen, if Josh can make it back. But we know they are looking for a Brain Tumor, which sounds bad, but, does happen in kids, and the prognosis is usually good. A surgery and some therapies. We are kind of torn because we want to help her in every possible way, and it is breaking my heart to watch her try to speak, and have all these weird symptoms that it might be nice to have a way to "fix" it. And yet, we are talking about a tumor.

So, friends and family, we are having a special fast on Sunday. We are not looking for a fast that it is not a tumor, although that would be great! We need your strength and support right now. So if you wouldn't mind fasting that our family can have the strength we need, and that no matter what Laila will be in the best care.

Laila will be going in on Wed. Dec. 23 at noon. It requires a Pediatric Sedation Team, and will last approximately 45 minutes. We will probably not have results until the Monday after Christmas, which happens to be Josh and I's 10 year wedding anniversary. We will keep you posted as best we can! Who knows, maybe Josh will be home for Christmas after all! Remember, I'm finding Joy this week.

Thanks everyone, and eventually I'll post some pictures again, I promise...

Have you ever had one of those weeks?

Sigh. Long week. Long Day.

I'm looking forward to Monday. It's going to be a new week. And I'm on the hunt for some Joy in my Journey.

Hopefully it won't be as hard to find as this past week.

Thanks to all those that helped in the smallest to largest of ways.

SH!T HAPPENS.

And it happened to me. I awoke from my slumber after a long night of rain, to find that my bedroom smelled a little off.

Raw Sewage was spewing from my washing machine's drain pipe.

A cleaning Crew came.

A 500 deductible paid.

Brand Freaking New carpet cut out.

Remember those Christmas presents next to the Washing Machine? Yeah, no longer.

A Septic Truck came and sucked out 2500 gallons of water (my tank holds 1000) and it's full again.

A back hoe is parked out front.

A 1500 dollar bill to be paid.

Determines that I might need a new Drainage Field. Could be 8,000 to 25,000 dollars. You read that right.

Merry Christmas to my family.

We got Sh!t for Christmas.

I'm not bitter, really I'm not.

Wanted: Hiding Places.

I know there are those who don't like to "lie" to their children. So they don't tell them about Santa, or his reindeer.

But I relish in it. I lie to them all the time when I tell them I'm the greatest mom in the world, and that they're lucky to have me. Or when I say I LOVE going to church, it's so much fun! And I absolutely believe in allowing my children to believe.

However, I'm discovering that as my kids get smarter, Santa has to, too. No longer is the closet a safe place, thank GOODNESS the UPS man came during the school week, that could have been catastrophic. I am certainly hoping Colson doesn't happen on to my blog by accident. He would be devastated. He's been trying to be good for all of one hour.

Anyway, I'm running out of places to stuff presents, and room in my brain to remember them. So far (next to the washing machine, next to the water heater, in the nazi closet (explanation for another day), up in my closet, under a seat in the car. This list is just to help me remember when it's late at night Christmas Eve and I'm wrapping presents alone... and Can NOT find that other thing!!

Merry Christmas to all!

Record Keeping

Laila is on a 30ish day cycle of vomiting. Every 30 days in the morning she throws up. It's been going on for about a year, but I've only started documenting it the last couple of months. Lucky you. She threw up this morning, and I'm keeping track. For my doctors who don't seem worried. I'm not crazy. She seriously does it once every month.

I feel the love!

Thanks everybody for your sweet thoughts and wishes... I should post more often like that. It's great to hear how you all are thinking of us!

I'm feeling much better (today, at least).

I have started to think about all the blessings I've been given. Seriously, ME. Of all the good people in the world, I get MY kids. Yeah they are work, and they outnumber me, and half of them, I'm required to change regularly, and they dirty clothes a lot. BUT, they love me. They think I'm the best cook in the world. They think I'm the greatest mom because I let them get their art stuff out. If only I could love others so easily.

My newest goal for the month is to see others as my kids would see them. Excited for their small successes (i.e. mini meatloaves) and cheer for them in a small way.

Why not? It's a great season to love.

S.O.S.

All I want for Christmas is a Full-Time Nanny!!

Never has a deployment been so difficult. I'm not sure why. I've tried to think about it, I mean I've added another kid this time around. But surely, that's not it. After all, what's one more?!?

Things that don't get done when your husband is gone:

Laundry
Groceries - you should see what kind of concoctions I come up with!
Automobile Repairs - I'm due for an oil change, and I have a broken door, how am I supposed to be without a van for 2 days, with 4 kids????
Lawn care - I mow when I can, but I can NOT start the stupid weed wacker/trimmer thing! There are some places with some seriously long grass. Pine Needles EVERYWHERE: I can't start the blower either.

But generally, stuff gets done it just takes me ten times as long, so I've created a black hole of housework that I will never climb out of.

Finally, taking care of kids. Each one is demanding attention, that I just don't have. It feels like I'm consistently letting down someone.

Anyway, I need to get going, I have to shop for the kids online, and I may just spend the extra to have the gifts come wrapped!!

Hope you're enjoying the Holiday Season as much as I.

Happy Thanksgiving (a little early I know)

Tomorrow will be busy as I'm cooking, and taking care of the kiddos. I really want to just enjoy the day with them. I'm plotting a little football in the backyard. When you have as many kids as I do, it's really not that hard! :)

Anyway, what's Thanksgiving without a little gratitude?

I'm grateful for these unexpected little things: Automatic Garage Door, New Towels, Pomegranites, Brown Eyes (Hallie can be so ornery, but I love looking at her deep brown eyes), Sign Language, Murphy's oil soap, the Ensign, Fresh Flowers, Filtered fridge water, Josh's Clothes (it's how I've kept him close), Kaboom Toilet Bowl Cleaner, Christmas CD's, online Christmas Shopping, slick writer pens, fresh clean sheets, shop vac, old friend phone calls, garden pruners, tissues, and The Colts, to name a few.

I'm also most grateful for my testimony and my family. Both of which make this challenging time seem not so challenging.

Wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving!

In the Spirit of Thanksgiving

Updated Link

Here's the link for the toys, I mentioned in the previous post!


It was a TODAY special Value - and they ended at midnight - which is why some of you landed on some cashmere sweater!

Still worth the cost! We're talking hours of enjoyment, HOURS!

Remember my recent Christmas Post?

Well, last year my in laws got the perfect toy for Christmas - literally every age has a blast with them - and I just noticed - QVC is offering them as the Today Special Value.

I'm a QVC junkie I admit it. BUT - if you're looking for the unexpected PERFECT gift - these toys are it! My kids (boy and girl, 3 different ages) and their friends of ALL ages have LOVED these!

Plus you can chalk it up as a learning toy!!

HAVE FUN!

Again I attempted the impossible.

The Seasonal Christmas Card Photo.

Why? Do you really want to see my children this time of year? Who do I do this for? Is it for me? For three of the past Christmas' I leave me out because Josh is out, so it would be weird to have just me and the kids. Last year I paid. An arm AND a leg, AND another arm and leg, to get semi-decent pictures. Still, why?

Now I've created this unfortunate tradition for me. I dressed up the kids in their SO CUTE matching outfits, got creative again and drove the tractor with the trailer out to the front yard. Set up my pose - Colson driving the three girls. I took at least 100 photographs. Seriously. Do you think I would get ONE amazing shot? Nope. So after all the work of getting them in their outfits, I have one final hope for my picture.

Becca, My Sister, A graphic designer, PLEASE HELP ME. I made her promise that since it was MY IDEA for her to go back to school I can get her assistance for free. But if YOU want some help editing your family's Christmas Portrait (I'm assuming I'm not the only one with unfortunate luck) I bet she could help you, too. (for a fair fee) I'm thinking she could photoshop my kids faces on some other fabulously taken photograph???

Laila has gotten into the Chocolate Chips and the Ginger snaps for breakfast, my house is a mess, and I'm blogging. Where are my priorities? I better get going she's signing for water. Wishing you and yours a blissful holiday season.

Please Remember the Veterans TODAY and ALWAYS. So many soldiers are alone for the holidays, what can you do? You can DONATE a "care package" here.

Trouble with a capital L.

My sweet innocent little Laila, has turned on me.

Today after nap she got up and instead of coming to see me with her thumb in her mouth, I could hear the pitter patter of her feet, and the dragging of a chair being scooted across the kitchen floor.

I quietly snuck up the stairs, because I LOVE to see mischief from the sidelines. (just not the aftermath)And from the corner of the kitchen I watched as she climbed up onto the counter, and then up to her feet, as she was sneaking gum. GUM - Her newest sign - THANK YOU NANNY JESS. I got her down and let her enjoy her piece of gum.

Fast Forward hours later, NOT paying attention. I find her back on the counter only this time, with 9 pieces of gum unwrapped, chewed, spit out, and a wad in her mouth.

What a girl.

Why MORE LAWS don't solve the problems of the world.

I've begun hearing about all the things that "could have, should have" been done to prevent the tragedy at Fort Hood. I can hear the people against carrying firearms now... if only we didn't have guns... More laws are not going to solve the problems, or even prevent the problems.

There's this thing called agency. People are free to choose good or evil. People can and will make poor decisions, and people can and will make good ones. It's called choice. But remember the shoe bomber??? And now everyone has to take off their shoes to fly?? We can't keep making laws and rules for these things. It would be impossible to prevent all tragedy. It just can't happen. Let's focus on what we can change, and that is our Moral Discipline. Choosing right, every time.

It's Moral Discipline and you can READ ALL ABOUT IT here.

Working out (and hard), Feeling Good

With all that has been going on here - total craziness - with four kids - I'm actually feeling good.

It's been almost 30 days of regular exercise - ok so maybe closer to 3 weeks, but I already feel a ton better, AND stronger. It's almost like my body is remembering the good ol' days before kids!

I started thinking about my Holiday Game Plan - (my eating game plan)- and thought that is just it! Have a plan! The treats that enter my door - half immediately to the trash. The other half we enjoy. The treats I make - 3/4 out the door! And finally plan some good choices and snacks to eat, so that there are healthy options for me to choose.

It's so much harder to lose than to gain - and this holiday season - I want to give a gift to me - and that's good health!

Any other thoughts on Christmas Giving?

I've received word, I'm no longer on someone's Christmas list. A tough financial year is the reason, and children and adults that are childless, remain on the list.

Recently, I've also had conversations where parents have tried really hard to keep the financial gift to be EXACTLY the same for each child. Josh and I had started this, and then I realized Fifty bucks bought a lot more for Laila, than for Colson, so that didn't work well either.

For a few years I've had this Christmas Plan for my kids: One Learning Toy, One Fun Toy, and One book. That's it. That's been my kids' Christmas. It's never big, if they get more than that it comes from elsewhere. I never wanted them to expect a massive Christmas, nor have I tried to spend the same amount. I wanted it small and meaningful.

We also haven't done a lot for extended family, we would sometimes do a Christmas CD, or Movie, or scrapbook, or nothing, Depended on the year. We always do a secret something for someone else. This is usually a generous gift to some unknowing person, (generous in the past hasn't been much, because we didn't have much). We've bought an extra toy and left it, a gift card, a box of food, or whatever.

I feel Christmas, is the time for giving. Especially Selfless giving. Where you think of those you love, and those in need, and you give them whatever you want to give however big or small. Or maybe even your time, if that's all you've got. I don't feel like you should have to give excuses or explanations, whether true or not, for your giving.

Just Give or Don't. That's my Christmas Theory.

I love these thoughts on Christmas.

Anyway, wishing you and yours a Merry Holiday Season.

The Perfect Job.

3.5 years, 40,000 bucks, blood, sweat, tears, and snotty little kids, and I am the proud owner of a diploma. A B.S. (quite literally) in education. This December marks 10 years since I accomplished the task. (one week before I got hitched, love you, JOsh, BTW, remember I want the ring on the cruise)

I've never actually had my own classroom. I knew I was going to be a teacher. No doubt. But I have so little desire to deal with the bureaucracy of the government controlled classroom, that, I've wondered, what else would I L.O.V.E. to do?

Anyone else with a dilemma like this? I don't regret my education, I enjoyed learning, and if I could get in a classroom, and teach my way, I think I would like it. But seriously, NO CLUE, I guess I don't have to worry about it right now, I just feel a little lost...

So in the meantime? I've picked up a sledge hammer at the Lowe's and have begun the demo on my master bath. I have NO CLUE what I'm doing. But I'm free labor, and seriously you can learn anything on You Tube (including how to be a teacher).

Dumb Computer.

My computer isn't working, it's irritating.

I'm totally blogging from the gym.

I burned 400 calories, and that should cover the 1/2 cup of chocolate peanuts I ate last night. So wierd, I'm not losing weight...

Anyway, Hope all of you are doing great, and enjoying life.

Life is so worth enjoying.

Save the Girls.

I couldn't do a lot financially - I did a little - but you can help too.

My friend is OH SO CLOSE to her goal - Please Help!

October is the month.

Save the Girls. You know you want to.

The Link is the Title.

If you drive a white van could you please come to the fitting room?

This was the page I was hearing over and over at Target this morning. YES. I drive a white mini van, no, I don't have a clue what my license plate is. I guess after the 2nd or 3rd time I thought I would check it out.

Well, ma'am, did you park over there? (pointing).

Yes.

Someone hit your car and drove off. We didn't get a tag number.

How bad is it?

Come with me.

I get out my phone and call police, as my heart is racing, I can NOT believe this is happening. (Did I mention that Josh's car was hit a couple of weeks ago in the parking lot)

I'm talking to the operator, when I walk up to my car, and look all around it, "I don't think it was me, I don't see it."

Here comes the Target employee, and she said No, it's over here, we go look at the back end of this van. It has a smashed in back door - a LOT of damage.

I was way too thankful that it wasn't me. Is that bad?? I'm so sorry to the owner of the Chrysler Town and Country white van, It stinks. I know how you feel (Josh's car).

And to you BIG LOSERS out there who hit cars and then take off. Comeuppance is my favorite word. Just for you.

Obama vs. Fox News

Obama's decision making skills are worse than I thought. Alienating an entire news network and their viewers is a BIG mistake. Just because there are millions of Americans that don't agree with his health care plan, nor his spending, (or a host of issues)`doesn't make the opposite view irrelevant. He has ALL other news organizations in his pocket, he's a big baby, tattling on Fox News, because they're talking about both sides of the issues. He should be entirely embarrassed; grow a pair, and if you're right, then why are you so worried about what they say? Perhaps you could even answer the tough questions, that many Americans are asking, like where's the money coming from? If you believe in what you're doing, than you should stick it to em.

Perhaps he could take a lesson from Bush. He never shut down the critics voices, he believed in what he was doing, whether you agreed with him or not, he had conviction.

There are those that would believe that no matter what He did, he would be screwing it up. (Hannity, Beck) But most Americans want to give him a fair shot. B.O. is continuously making foolish unpresidential decisions. Which, will cost him a second term.

Hallie's Trip to the Library

This is what she came home with. I mean what do I say to that?

Wish me Happy Reading!

Things you never thought you'd hear your husband say.

"Have you seen my gas mask inserts?"

Anyone else?

SOLD.

We just took Josh's car to Carmax, and we sold it. So dang simple. I just know we could have squeezed a couple hundred out of some other person - but totally NOT worth the hassle.

It's getting pretty serious over here. How am I going to do this all over again?

Tidbits.

Laila's Neurology appt. went great. Low muscle town in the upper part of the body (including mouth) making it physically difficult to speak. But nothing else really. He doesn't know if or when she'll talk. So brush up on your signs, it will become Laila's first language! :)



Colson and Hallie - coming off the bus on the first day of school. They're so cute running to see me.






One of the things I'll miss while Josh is gone for six months.





The Brick Oven in my Kitchen - Any Ideas?

October is here, and my Colts are Rocking.

Enjoying the Fall Season.

We start with General Conference.

I hosted a fun Fall get together that included bobbing for apples, hayride, bonfire, and great friends.

I've also purchased the items and ingredients necessary to make apple butter, and apple sauce, to CAN for the very first time!!

The weather is great, and life is good.

Wishing you a happy fall.

Did I mention the colts are doing awesome?

I did it. And I'm going to do it again.

A looooooooong time ago, I lived in a ward, with a great Bishop. (Now he's Uncle Mike) And he would set goals for the ward every year, just 2 or 3 measurable goals. One year we were to give out TWO Book of Mormons. That summer I flew to San Diego for a friend's wedding. On the trip home, I met a Med Student from MA, and we talked about the church, I got his address, and sent him a Book Of Mormon. I never did hand out the 2nd B. o. M. that year.

Today, I was loading the kids up in the car, and there was a guy sitting in a drivers' seat of a car parked next to me, and he was reading. The thought came to me, to give him a Book of Mormon. NO WAY. HE WOULD SO THINK I WAS A WIERDO.

I had one in my drivers' side door, I read it while waiting for kids, etc. But it's one I've hung on to since a friend of ours in Bloomington passed away. At her funeral they handed out a Book of Mormon, with one of her last entries in her journal taped to the front. One of the most powerful testimonies I've ever heard. I didn't want to give it away!! But what was I doing with it? Why not give the opportunity of the truth to someone else? So I did it. I got back out of the van. I said some horrible thing like: "Do you want to read something that will change your life? Something told me to give this book to you, it has a note in the front from a friend a long time ago, but I hope you like it." And then I left. No contact information, not even the name of the church building or anything - just the testimony faded in the front, and a water damaged, wrinkled Book of Mormon, that was 8 years old.

But what the world needs now?? More Truth, and Less Hate. So if you want a FRESH CLEAN FREE Book of Mormon, you can get one here.

By the way, it CAN change your life. Yes Yours. Pick it up, read it again, or get yourself one.

I hate to say I told you so... BUT.

I'm having trouble finding the people that can turn a positive spin on this Obama Presidency.

I used to think B.O. was doing o.k. in Afghanistan, but now he's showing weakness. My friend Emily and I were chatting and she made such a good point. She said either put the troops where they're needed, or get them out of there. I mean taking no stance is worse than either of the other two choices here.

At least Bush knew what he wanted. I mean he was accused of being a bully, but seriously at least you knew where he stood.

Obama is a wreckless disaster. Health Care Reform = a total mess, Guantanamo = Total Mess, Foreign Policy=total mess, Czars - huh????, Spending = need I say more. (I didn't even mention Acorn)

I remember watching him walk out to take the oath (botched) and he seriously looked like he didn't have a clue. And now, we see, he didn't. Everyone criticized Sarah Palin, as if "on the job" training would be the worst case scenario. Well now we're seeing what it looks like. And it's a lot scarier when it's the President.

And I'm just going to go here, because I've heard that those who oppose B.O.'s policies are doing so because of race. Well, I believe that there are those who use that card, that if Obama were able to solve all the world's problems there would be those who would still not like him because of his Race. It's unfortunate, ignorant, and unbecoming of a true Patriot. However, I submit, that there are those, who do not like Me, because of the color of my skin (well probably for a lot of reasons). This Racism thing goes both ways. Because I don't agree with anything Obama is doing doesn't make me a racist, it makes me an avid conservative. So to those accusatory fingers pointed at me, start picking your nose, you've got it all wrong, just like your president.

Baby Poop Wall Update. What do you think?